On who I think I am..

I remember writing something here when I couldn't get to eat an ice-cream. I'm here writing again after successfully making it happen. Though I haven't thoroughly enjoyed the ice-cream today, I still like the way we sat with the ice-cream cup in our hands. Speaking quite candidly, I sort of had a real crazy head while pillion riding again. I was forming pictures in my mind, of the same fall and my lil head scraping with pressure on the road. It was just for a normal five seconds. After that it was just the way it had to be, awesome. So, life gets busy at one point or the other. And I mysteriously managed reaching that point. Just wanted to update about a couple of things I been going through all these lovely days.

On being emotional : After the accident, I realised that life is sure not a game and it brought me too close to God. I know how important every second is. Somethings have been messed up for quite sometime and I been waiting in hope that it would get straightened someday or the other. I used to have absolute mood swings every now and then and I didn't quite learn on how to keep up pace with life. I was never ready to be patient at most cases but still tried to act patient and used break down from within. At times it got really difficult for me to recognize changes in life. For example, I used to sulk and be jobless the entire day and all of a sudden I don't see myself having even a minute time to have a look at myself. Most of all, I needed one friend I could really really talk my heart out to, even though I had I ended up missing out on chances. Out of the busy schedules that I've been under, I missed mom. I see her every morning but I don't get to throw my emotions on her. I needed time maybe a LOT of it just for myself. And hope sometimes had gotten hopeless which in a way was good.

On being a weirdo : After my accident I happened to be on a bed rest for 2 weeks as my leg was being plastered and I was asked to take good rest. I was on a medical leave and I was so happy about it. Not about my leg, but about the leave (certainly). There was this friend I knew from a long time, who kept asking me a couple of times to meet her. I thought okay I should because anyway I was bugged up at home for like 10 days. I needed change before I'm back to work. I ignored almost every possible thing and met her. Yes with the plaster on my leg. After a long conversation and after I slowly finished chomping on my kfc zinger, she asked me if I was free for the evening. And I said yes. She asked me to doll up because we were going for a fashion week show that evening. Yay, super excited and blah. I still went with the plaster to the show because I wasn't going to be on the ramp anyway all I had to do was sit in one place. We entered and we got our seats. To my right somehow I seen a couple of people who were talking to a gentleman. I gulped huge amount of redbull that was given away for free, and turned to the people next to me again. I seriously know not, why?! My eyes were fixed on the gentleman standing tall, oh-so-bright-and-very-handsome who I know for sure wasn't looking at me even a bit. Later, I found myself burying my head in my arms because he was the director of the company I am currently associated with. I hid myself as much as I could. Nevertheless, he did see me at the fashion week. Well, I was on a medical leave btw. When I whined about this, some lovely people of my life told me that I was recovering and no one has any right to question me. Well. I kept that in mind :D

On being a normal person : Emotional stuff had gotten me really weird for a while. I know it keeps happening now and then. But at this point in time, I feel myself way too happier than before. And all that gives me this joy is my faith in God. Because I believe that he makes all things bright and beautiful in His time. I feel like I'm back home. To the place I totally belong. I'm trying to LIVE 100%. Oh, if you wanna know. My leg is fully recovered. I'm back to work. And I had the best time with cousins this summer.

I shall write soon here with more fun stuff!! <3